Free-writes

Great morning meditation.  Now on the porch watching fish jump and just being.  A good day to just be.   The dog next door is still barking - now 90% of the time.  She is very old.  Wonder if she is lonely or angry or scared of dying?  I'm finally learning that "dying is a part of living" is a good way of looking at it.  That's what my mother's long-time African-American friend (70 years) always said.  And it is consoling.  My goal is to LIVE until I die rather than getting there and having regrets.  My bucket list is getting shorter every week.  As a matter of fact, I can't think of anything at all on it this morning.  How's that for a way to start a day! For an "achiever" (Enneagram type 3) I'd say I've come a long way, baby.  Actually, I think I've grown into an "Adventurer" (type 7) and happy where I am.  Seeking to avoid pain as a "Happiness Specialist."  And, actually doing very well at it, if I do say so! But then, I've always been looking for the next great space!  (How in the world did this post evolve into this?)  Nothing like free-writes to open the heart.