The Past

Well, I can see a bit better now - first glasses I bought were too strong for computing.  Now perhaps I can avoid typos a bit better.  I love these purple frames on my new computer glasses!  At the price of drugstore ones, I can afford new ones often!  I have been spending lots of time cleaning out files.  It's absolutely amazing how freeing it is to throw away stuff!  What once seemed valuable seems totally valueless today.  This started with looking for stuff for taxes and just grew to cleaning out ALL my files.  Even throwing out early drafts of my book - I'm on number 5 or 6 now and there seems no end to drafts!  So, I threw away the first three.  I pray this non-attachment feeling lasts.  I don't know why it is so hard to dispense with stuff when I know clearly how freeing it is.  Conflicting emotions.   It would be nice if I could stay focused on NOW.  Why is it so hard to let go of the past?  I don't truly want to let go of the future, but I would like to fork over my past to the past and have it stay there!